Fighting Off the C Word

I've just been informed today by a nurse at my doctor's office that I need to come in for a biopsy on Wednesday morning.

I guess I am a little worried, but I hope its some other abnormality other than Cancer.  The dreaded "Big C" runs in my family, and my twin sister is also having a biopsy done on Tuesday.

I have thought of the "what-ifs" before, and I am pretty certain that if Cancer finally hunts me down and kicks my ass, I don't think I would want to put myself and my family through a long drawn out process.  I've seen chemotherapy greatly diminish the quality of life of a lot of people in my family.... and it really doesn't seem to help many people.  Aside from that, the medical procedures are just way too expensive.  I would want to try natural holistic treatments.... but definitely not something invasive and traumatic like chemo.

I'm hoping everything is ok and that its not something as big as Cancer.  But we'll see.

I think I am at a point in my life where I'm feeling it would be nice to start over anyway.  I do believe in reincarnation, and have been feeling rather tired of my current life.  No kids.... no husband anymore.... no love in my life.... nothing to really look forward to.  The truth is, I am pretty sad and lonely most of the time.  I do have my moments..... I enjoy learning new things, taking hikes, exercising, and enjoying myself and my body as much as possible.  But the enjoyment is few and far between these days.  It's definitely not without trying though!

Despite my loneliness.... I am still hoping for the best possible scenario.

If I do have Cancer.... I am immediately going to buy Essiac Tonic in bulk! :)